I would love to write about the beauty of the night, But I feel my words may come lacking in spirit.
How could i describe the moon's beauty in words that would give justice to its splendor?
I could find no words to tell about the invisible stars, hidden by the lights of this great metropolis.
There is the darkness in the sky, so vast, so endless, but my depth in words are lacking.
I would love to give an ode to this night sky, but i'll stop now, before I ruin its beauty with my meaningless babble.

I bow to these Great Pinoy Writers

I've lived here for 20 years and so far, only 4 writers have impressed me. Patricia Evangelista, Jim Paredes, Bob Ong and Jessica Zafra. They do not deliver the news, they deliver opinions about the news or about the Phulippines. And I love writers who are not afraid to speak out and do something about it. They are not only great thinkers but also part of our society's movers and shakers because they communicated it to us throught the written word.

I first saw Patricia Evangelista on TV. When she was being interviewed by Boy Abunda for winning a Public Speaking competition abroad. The title of her winning piece made an impression on my mind, Blonde and Blue Eyes. That piece talked about the Filipino's unexplainable desire for Americanization, it's as if we look up to them like they are the most beautiful, and we are ugly. That piece was wonderful, and the way she spoke about it made you know that she feels it too, she empathizes because she once felt that way. Not anymore. Because she found beauty in being herself, and she wants the rest of us to feel that way too.

BOB ONG. I looked and looked for his website but alas, I could not find it anymore. But I do have the physical evidences of his existence; his books! He writes in tagalog, with all the jejemon and slang terms you could hear spoken by the ordinary folk. He has no inhibitions of being somewhat superior than us, he is one of us, he could be that lasenggero in the corner store, that DOTA guy in the internet cafe, he could be anyone and through his writing, he has become a representation of every Filipino. his writings has a sardonic taste to it, it's like being jabbed in the side, our culture as Filipino's expressed in the written word and in our mother language. He makes us laugh, but with that a realization that yeah, we are like this, but we should be PROUD of it because that makes us Filipinos. We are UNIQUE.

Jim Paredes, on the other hand, I've known for his songs. I didn't realize he could write as well as he could sing, if even better. He had that eye opening approach to writing which I loved reading because his thoughts expressed exactly how I felt (in a non-violent way heheh) about the recent Philippine issues. He is also part of a movement called the Artists' revolution calling for a change within ourselves.

Now, another author whose books I've been trying to collect (but our bookstores seem to have limited supply of her books) and read is Jessica Zafra. Rawr. She is that lady in black glasses. I love her work because she writes so well, her pieces are all witty and entertaining and I think that it's such a great talent to have that because wit in writing is so scarce nowadays.

I look up to these people, I hope I get to be like them someday.

My life revolves around these three letters: WWW

Ah, the beauty of the world wide web. There's so many unchartered regions to discover! So many sites to explore! And you can even make your own island in the middle of it all. Where in the real world could you make that sort of thing? Nowhere but here in the WWW!

That sounded like a sucky commercial byline. I just realized that since I have so much time on my hands, time I got by escaping the school's sucky intramurals. My real life sucks because I exist like a floating piece of plastic, I go wherever the wind takes me. That's not such a great thing for someone like me. I do have dreams and aspirations but due to constricting circumstances....here I am. Escapism is my mantra every day. I could get through this if I have my dreams with me. Someday, i hold that promise to myself, someday.

thank goodness I still got this little piece of freedom, this access to the great beyond. A freedom to be more than what I am through the web. Plus I get free music and movies. : )

So, i'll take all this suckiness in life, as long as I get to have that promise of SOMEDAY.
Ugh, sucky commercial byline again.

Disappointing.

You talk loud but it ends there. I looked up to you because you speak well and seem to do well, because you are who you are and don't try to be something you're not.
I was wrong.
You are so full of words you just manage to get through your mouth, when it comes out, it goes out like a balloon floating in mid-air until you yourself popped it, never allowing it to take flight.
I looked up to you because you said you wanted something more than what this ridiculous existence has to offer, but what happened? Was the pull of prestige too strong to resist? Do their opinions really matter that much? I thought you were above that, but you're not.
You told me before that if chance would come, you;d be the first one out, but now you are the one holding on tightly. It's a shame. You talk big, but in the end you swallowed it back whole. That stuff is hard to chew.
You fail. I hope I don't end up like you.
Tsk, tsk.

All Sighs Day

Darth Vaders and Sunshine barbies

"I’m sick of always looking like Darth Vader next to Sunshine Barbie. Life’s to short, but you make it feel so long."--Blair Waldorf

Oh Blair! :( You were never the Darth Vader. You are by far, the most interesting character in the series because you are real. :)

The show is trashy. But I do love watching Blair Waldorf. Where would you find sunshine Barbies around the youth of today? 

Nowhere. We are all Darth Vaders. (Or Darth Vaders dressing up as Barbies)

Among all the characters of the show, Blair is the one who has the most insecurities. Her insecurities define me, define us. Define what we all have felt and currently feeling. In a world which shows you all the glamor, your insecurity grows. You see the media flaunting the Sunshine Barbies, the uber cool It girls who look like soulless plastic dolls. That's right, Plastic. Think about it, we look at them, we envy them, we want to be there. But where is there? And who are they? Are they real? Or are they just manufactured beauty that is skin deep?

Look around you, you see your fellow Darth Vaders because that's who we are. We are more real and more human than any of those. We are the insecure. Yet we continue to live and love and laugh, because, hey, who ever said the world was fair? Let them have the beauty, and we can have the freedom to BE. I'd rather experience these bouts of insecurity because they make me who I am. They define me and enable me to be something MORE. 

Imagine being a perfect Sunshine Barbie...sounds fun? But after all the parties and magazines and shows, you may find yourself LOST. Who are you in the world of plastic reality? What have you become? Will you find that answer by staying a Sunshine Barbie? 

But to a Darth Vader, an Ugly Duckling, we get to find answers. We can find answers because we have the freedom of being simple, ordinary. We can be extraordinary and happy about ourselves. We have insecurities at the beginning but we shed that and learn and become better people. Sunshine Barbies get to be that for all their lives, threats are omnipresent because they live by their beauty, and as we know, beauty fades. 

When the World Cup players get back to France NT...

I don't feel so good about it. Patrice Evra, I have this dire feeling about him. I hope it won't prove true. There's something sinister about the come-back of the world cup players. Evra, Gourcuff and Ribery don't mix well together. It would be such a shame if their issues would pull down the team again. Whatever issues they've had was not resolved during all those times they were together for the World Cup. They are men, not boys, they should have been able to forgo their issues for the sake of the team, for the sake of their country but they didn't. It blew up and caused a once-proud football nation so much disgrace. And Evra's attempts to get pardon and lift the 5 match ban shows a steak of impatience, pride and resoluteness that does not suit me well. This insistence to get back on the team, the impatience looks to me like he does not accept his role in the world cup disaster. And that lack of remorse or guilt means he is not psychologically ready to be back. How would he set himself up in a fresh, young team with a new coach? Plus the other world cup players will be back, and I feel apprehensive about that. Right now, Blanc has enough troubles in his hand without the players' issues getting in the mix. France is slowly but surely rising from disgrace, they need the consistent wins and mind set without anyone inside the team ruffling their feathers. I know the world cup players were the best in their clubs, but even with so much talent, they failed. They had NO TEAMWORK. Evra couldn't be a good captain, he wasn't bale to resolve inner team conflict or maybe set boundaries for players to not take their issues beyond the locker room and into the pitch. It was all a failure. And getting them back, well, for me, spells more disaster. I don't want that. I guess if as a player, you feel you can't represent your country well enough, you should just stop lying to yourself and let others take the lead. France is a new, young team. Let it grow enough, maybe they'll show us back the glory again. I know they will. The new players know they are young and inexperienced internationally but still they are trying, and their last win proved it. They could do it. If ever Evra and the otehrs come back, I hope they won't ruin it.

The Golden Goal Rule

Sepp Blatter should focus on putting a more technologically advanced game where he puts up goal line technology. 
He said "But in the first few matches of the group stage in South Africa, we witnessed some teams that went out to avoid defeat, that were playing for a draw from the outset." To be fair, those teams played to win, and qualify and it was essential for them to get points during a draw. The games played out well, perhaps it has escaped your notice, dear Mr. Blatter, that the only times when it DID not do so well where during those times when blatant mishaps were MISSED by your referees. Why don't you focus on that instead?! 


"We have to try to find a way to encourage free-flowing football in tournaments like the World Cup, with teams playing to win."-Blatter


They did play to win, I think it was obvious that they wanted it, who wouldn't? You see, the only hindrance to that is the way the game kept on stopping or being stopped by atrocious red and yellow cards for questionable faults, the missed goals and when your referees turned a blind eye to obvious penalties. WTH Blatter? This issue has been on the rise since those incidents but you keep skirting around them! You say you want to re-introduce the Golden Goal for free flowing football, I say you learn to priortize and get to a more pressing issue than that. get Goal Line technology, get any technology that would assist your referees in the game! 

Mesut and Sami benched for the meantime

Wow first name basis! LOL. This post may just spawn hatred for Jose Mourinho. I respect him as a coach because let's face it, he has proven himself as a great coach, the chosen one. Well the chosen one is pretty choosy and had a fun summer baiting and hooking and catching players all over. And his favorite fishing place is apparently Germany. He knows what he wants and he gets it. I'm a  bundesliga fan and I may be a bit possessive in its players because I do not want them to move out. The fact is, because of how the Germans have fared in the World Cup, things are looking bright for the the Bundesliga and I so want those players of quality to be part of it all. Back to Mourinho, he got Oezil and Kheidera, but because of the players' obvious language barrier (They are Germans/Turkish, what do you expect?) he places them on the bench. Well, Mourinho, if you keep doing that, you'll knwo you'll have lost something because those two were Germany's key players (Everyone is a key player in Die Mannschaft :D) Okay, I'm ranting. Need to stop. LOL. But I hope they get more playing time and perhaps request a translator since right now, it's going to be tough going during a language class to switch from German to Spanish. Hopefully, they get to show their talents sooner. And maybe even be friends with the rest of Real Madrid.