Sunny kind of wonderful

Sunday, September 6, 2009

a quote

"I still feel like a castaway, the last of a once numerous species. It was as though Robinson Crusoe discovered the telltale footprint on the beach and then realized that it was his own. Myself, small as a leaf, thin as water, begins to cry."

What faith can keep us strong?

What's so good about having something to believe in? a god, an idol, an image. Anything to keep us believing. Who said we have to see to believe? Who said we have to believe in order to see? These days, faith gets stripped off of its mystique, leaving it bare for cruel eyes to see. We chose what we believe, but sometimes, our beliefs chooses us. We lose sense of faith, we lose that freedom to chose. We blindly stumble into one belief to another. What if we simply choose to not believe; to leave it all behind and just be an empty slate. Will we still be as strong as we want to believe?

disillusions

The final days of dreams running freely
end with the promise of a new tomorrow
yet they linger as they once were
A fleeting memory of what would have been
The promised tomorrow failed miserably
We stumble and fall
we get torn by harsh realities
The life and love of late seem to disappear
what's left are remnants of mostly dissipated angst
Despair runs deep
seeping into the depths of one's soul
tearing away what's left behind
leaving wounds that turn to scars
scars that remain to be so cruel

contemplations of an uncertain mind

we don't know what we're going for...
we are here and now
we are unattentive to future uncertainties
the goals we live by are short and uncertain
we can look but we do not see
where are we going?
are we going somewhere or nowhere at all?
will we be something?
or do we remain to be nothing?

Hidden Goodbyes

When the last of the leaves in autumn fall
I look around to find you nowhere at all
The trace of your sweet scent is undetected
The everyday minutiae blends in with the last of your traces
You are gone
Gone forever you are
The sweet touch of your hand
The last remnants of the feel of you next to me
It lasts for so long in my memory
But time, and time again
Erases them all

miscellanea

random thoughts..
random doubts...
random needs

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

the story of my day

The morning was filled with expectations and excitement for the task to come. We were so ready to take on the challenge of a community assembly which our class organized. Everything from the food, tablecloth, dissemination, freebies, presentations and visual aids was prepared with great care.

Our efforts were not wasted because WE ROCKED!

Our guest instructors told us that the event was a success!

Well of course not everything came perfectly.

There was the teeny-tiny problem of the time for starting.

It was quite annoying since we told the residents that we’d start at 9.30am but they changed the time to 9.00am! So we have to go back and inform them AGAIN! It’s quite tiring, really, really tiring to go climbing up mountains, I didn’t want to go and return sweaty so Evan and me went to the place with the monkey. Surprise, surprise…we found the native twins (Sheilla and Honey) chiilin’ at the top of the hill, in the shaded area of course! And some of our classmates were also hanging out in the store, eating and drinking junk. We joined them, of course, we can’t resist Super Crunch and Ding Dongs.

My only regret was that we couldn’t stay at the videoke place (2 songs for p5.00!!!!) since we’d be heard over at the basketball court.

---program begins here---

There were only three notable things about the program,

First

The “Single Ladies” dance presentation of Mars, Jim and Doms

Second

The “Balot” commercial, it’s classic (since first year!)

Third

Chelle and Charly’s Reflection dance interpretation…very amusing!

Three annoying things that happened

first

lack of seats

second

untimely handing out of snacks, grrr, most of them are

goblins indeed!

third

i only got one sandwich! hmpf!

oh, there’s a fourth one!

My nametag that says, “Hi, I’m Carma…group leader” embarrassing! (*because it means I have to work and pretend to be responsible, heheh*)

It ended quite well, one of my clients received a prize! Yehy! Good for her!

Went home tired and happy and ignorant of what will come in the afternoon…doom-doom-doom…

Hahah, so I came in quite early and Karen and me went out to do our daily ritual of buying food. We met Sheilla the native, Jordell the sleepy, Princess of jellyfish and Aia, who we tried to fool…and we ended up as fools indeed when we came back to the room, bearing halo-halo and iced teas. The door was closed, I opened it and grinned happily at everyone (they were so few..) Suddenly, V told us to “do not enter the room”. She was quite insistent about it, sending some boys to close the unclosable doors but we were okay with it…heheh, we knew there were others coming. They did come and we outnumbered the people inside the room! SO we loitered in the lobby and played pranks on the peopel inside who were trying not to laugh at our antics. We had a photo shoot right there until V lost her temper and told us to stay away from the lobby.

We are obedient children so we loitered in the stairs and continued our photo shoot! (and dissed HER)

We we were so not concerned about missing that! It was more eventful outside, the people inside were just eating egg sandwiches (leftovers from our CA).

In conclusion, It was a GREAT day!

xoxo

Monday, February 16, 2009

Movie marathon

—from February 11 to February 15

BoyC’s DVD

Australia-lukewarm
bolt-cool!
the day the earth stood still-too much of a cliché to be fully enjoyed
Marley and me-cool!
yes man-lukewarm
Igor-bore
Benjamin button-hot!

Mine!

serendipity-fave!
a good year-fave!
catch and release-lukewarm
the break-up-lukewarm
Kate and Leopold-fave!
music and lyrics-cool!
the lake house-cool!

period

So, i finally got over the blues. It’s the stage I have to go through every time i have my period. I wonder why it’s called a period anyway, it implies something different. The term is not enough to describe the discomfort of the whole thing. It is one of the banes of womanhood; aside from pregnancy and boobs (It’s not fair! Boys should get bigger boobs too! *kidding*)

The experience is alike to a phoenix…hah!

Not really, it’s just a pretty horrible time for me. People seeing the sulky, moody, wet blanket side of me. I am myself, still. But not the cheerful, ready for battle, tactless (geesh…) and fun loving Carma. Just the horrible girl who just wants to stay in a corner and brood.

Ah, well.

Activities of the day:

6.10am woke up

6.11am napping

6.15am stood up dizzily to go and bath sleepily

6.30am stood around dreamily

6.35am daily girly stuff

6.50am get out of room

7.01am arrived at classroom

7.03am fights, gossip, teasing, waiting

7.30am the SO vs. SV debate

7.50am SO won, well of course, he’s hot! i was rooting for him!