The heroine takes comfort in forgetting

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!

The world forgetting, by the world forgot.

Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!

Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd

B.U.M.

I am currently living the bum life.

• B – Boring
• U – Uh-oh
• M – Maddening

Bum. But there’s always a silver lining for every dark cloud which hovers, Eeyore-like, over my head. 

   11  Realizations

1.  I have had two boyfriends but I have never been on an official date. (The date that involves dining out, talking, and getting to know each other) Not a single date.
2.   I used to think that I could live under a rock forever. Living the Patrick Star life of sleep, eat, tv/internet, eat and sleep. Now I don’t. Life is for living and staying inside my room for a million years does not seem like a good prospect now.
3.   I am desperate for a job. I want to try out writing. I never realized how serious i was about writing as a career until I started applying for writing jobs and getting rejected in every single one.
4.   I need books. Books are my companions. I need them as much as I need air, water and food. It is vital that I read or else I’ll go stupid.
5.   I became stupid. Wow, I miss lectures. So much that I started listening to online lectures about English, Literature, Art and philosophy. If I ever get the chance to study again, I’d definitely take them up.
6. §  Writing is difficult. When I was younger, I have this idea of myself as a Superman-Writer. I could write anything and everything. Just give me pen and paper and I‘d write. Now that I’m older I realize that I am a Clark Kent too. By day I am ordinary and when the world is getting desperate, Superman comes out.
7.   Money matters. In life it does. It helps keep the world going. Yes it does not make the world go round by itself but it is one important factor. Gone are the days when bargaining things for skills could keep you alive. Now you need money.
8.   Never count your chicks before they are hatched. ‘Tis true what the famous line says; if you forget a life lesson it will keep coming back until you’ve put it to heart. I am cocky because I can write and speak better than most people. It is a heady talent to be able to do that among my peers, of course reality comes to give you a much needed bitch slap; there will always be someone lesser and better than  you so away with the cockiness.
9.   Hate is vitriol. You can love a person but that does not mean you have to like her. I am irritated by stupidity. I fear stupidity because it is crippling. Stupidity will make me a lesser person, stupidity will not make me appreciate great novels, stupidity will hinder my learning and stupidity will cripple my writing. Stupidity is a choice. Never choose stupidity.
10.   Failure is inevitable. Especially after College. I have tried thrice and have failed thrice. Third time was never the charm. I have doubted myself and I have consoled myself.
11. Keep going. I tell myself to do just that. My wallpaper says, “What’s holding you back?” My fears, self doubts, insecurities. Now that the question has been answered, i now pose a challenge to myself; Everyone deserves a chance to fly. So I will.

Hello Giggles!

Most magazines cater to the superficial demands of a woman; vanity. Somehow they never get to the real issue; personality. I have been following Hello Giggles! for quite a while but I only got to read their articles now and what I’ve read have been really good. Sometimes their articles are short but poignant, they tackle the simplest things about being a girl and it makes the reader feel a companionship with the writers. The writers are mostly actors, musicians and performers. They write really well and it’s like having an online magazine for a best friend. BFF’s talk about anything and everything and it’s what this website is all about. In their ‘About Us’ section, they mentioned the words lady friendly and standard boys club, the latter which they find unappealing, most magazines nowadays seem to be all about finding and keeping the right guy and hooking up or sex which for me is very shallow and it endorses women as boy crazy. Imagine how boys would think when reading magazines that only talk about those issues, is that what really goes on in girls brains? Fashion and beauty magazines are fine but they tend to make the readers insecure and insecurity is a girl’s worst vice and magazines like that tend to foster the idea that we have to aspire to the model’s looks to be truly beautiful. It’s all so phony. Hello Giggles is a fresh relief, reading them makes you feel good about yourself.


Update: I do not find this site as interesting as when it started out. Now it just has photos of nails and stuff....dull.