but where are you?

Someone just told me I look ugly in my photo. At first, I was like, Okay, he's just teasing, but then he repeated it again and my fragile self esteem went shooting down the drain. So of course, I look for redemption from friends and guess who I thought of first?! Well, you. But you weren't there...and I waited! =(

I know I shouldn't rely on you to make myself feel good again but it's just so freaking addictive. You make me feel like everything else doesn't matter because you still care. When I tell you about it, you consider it in ways that make those annoyances go away, and I know other people can do that for me but you just make it feel more special, somehow. 

This is not good. I'm becoming dependent. 

And you're still nowhere to be found. 

WTF moment: Dreams feel real when we're in them

I just had the strangest feeling that my friend may have told me something life-changing about her but I didn't listen. We were talking  about everything and she may or may not have told me she was going to break up with her boyfriend...or I have just dreamt about it. Waahh!! This is so frustrating! It could have been true, I mean, our conversation did come to that boyfriend part but I'm not so sure about the breaking up thing and I don't want to ask again because she might get hurt that I didn't listen (If it's true) or think I'm confusing dreams with reality again (if untrue). Darn. So I may have learned too much during that day, not only about her but also of my other friends, that's why I must have gotten it confused or something. Too much personal information in just a few hours with different people can leave me feeling woozy.

I'm having my fingers crossed, I hope its untrue. I don't want them to break up. I don't know the guy but they've been together since high school and the apparent reason they'll be breaking up is because of another guy (?!?!). Oh crap, there's that feeling that it could have been true again. Darrrrnnnn...!

What if it was true?! But I really don't remember how I reacted at that time.
I'm crossing my fingers, hoping it's just a dream.
Why can't I remember that part of the conversation?!
It's untrue!
(I hope)

this is so frustrating!

i LOL when i saw this photo!

Gross Things Barcelona Players Say About the Cesc Fabregas Situation

Via the Telegraph:

"After seven years of great service, I thought Arsenal could have granted him his dream move."

The Barca captain is the latest senior player to make loaded remarks about Fabregas's future, joining Xavi, Andres Iniesta and Sergio Busquets.

Puyol added: "Cesc has given everything to Arsenal to try to win a trophy but they haven't matched his expectations.

"I won't say he is in a prison, as we know how privileged we are as football players. But after how clear Cesc made it that he wanted to be in Barcelona, I thought they would have granted him that."

if...

If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with. You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my tendency to be too clingy. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me. But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day. You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite my thinking that it is impossible.


from: tumblr.com
http://astroannie.tumblr.com/post/870751447/if-you-are-going-to-fall-in-love-with-me-its-only