Down. Down. Down.
I'm so stupid I only just realized that I've been in denial for the past four years. I keep telling myself, this is a good course to take, this is my choice. NOT. WTF, I wanted UPM, I wanted to be with him but I convinced myself that it's going to be hard because someone warned me that's the way it'll be. Just warned me about unrepeatable stuff that'll probably make me hate her forever. And now my head's out of the water, I can finally say I effing hate where I am now. My life is like mud. MUD. Effing Mud.
