me too...

“For my part I know nothing with any certainty, but the sight of the stars makes me dream”

—	Vincent Van Gogh

i prefer my own twisted reality

LMAO photos of the day

that's right photoS... i've got a lot...
"herpin Derpin" Messi special
:DD

Snapshots: Olympique Lyonnais' new Number 29

The porno-like medical examination

dear Country

I can't say I cared too much when news spread about the hostage taking at Quirino Grandstand. Nor will I be a hypocrite and lie that i cared about Miss Venus somebody in a beauty pageant. I am a filipino citizen, yes. But I'm also a hurt, confused individual who may or may not graduate in a c(o)urse that she mistakenly thought as "easy".

The Philippines has been under a lot of strain, as I have been, as millions of other youth in the world right now. That news about the hostage crisis, the media circus, the cringe-worthy aftermath that made us popular (or should i say,notorious) to the world, was just news at that moment, that which will then become history. What made me care about it was the way we, Filipinos, rode in the circus. We are the ones who are making fools of ourselves. What could have been conducted with dignity became a comedy show instead, with dire repercussions to our dignity as a filipino nation. This is how the world will see us now. This is how far we've gone under. This is how far we must take back of what we have lost. Rebuild and unite as a country to protect our own, to survive together, not to trample on those who have already fallen. 

Un-thankfulness

There are so many things a person should be thankful for, but when it all comes down to it, my life's un-thankfulness exceeds any thankfulness involved.

Life isn't fair, i know. But it stings when the person who should have made it less so, is the one making it all worst.

When I feel like crying, i stop because i don't want to waste them on insufferable idiots who make my life miserable. I know it's been deemed as therapeutic but to me it's just a waste of time when i could be happy instead.

So I go to where I'm happiest. My dreams, Football. My life that revolves around the world wide web.

there.

“Writing is a form of therapy; sometimes I wonder how all those, who do not write, compose, or paint can manage to escape the madness, the melancholia, the panic fear, which is inherent in a human condition.”

—	Graham Greene

Yoann to OL

Divorce imminent between Bordeaux and Yoann Gourcuff




this is such bad timing! i got mad when i first read this because it sounded like yoann was jumping ship when bordeaux was failing to win the matches. But the truth was that Yoann have been contemplating the move ever since Blanc and Chamakh headed out of the club. That's wrong, i made it sound like they were the only reason he was in the club. But he really wanted to transfer, that, i do know, and if arsenal (when rumors flew that they wanted him pre-Wc disaster) did bid for him, he was going there.
The problem with the issue was the bad timing, he talked with Jean Tigana the night before their match with PSG and it can cause terrible effects towards the club itself. it's like he lost faith, he seemed to have been gradually losing faith. I pity him. This has not been a good year, there were too much expectations, the world cup was a diasaster, he needs redemption by going through a fresh beginning. I support Yoann, wherever he may want to be and whatver he may decide to do, i'll still be his fan. :)

Quoting ballers

“I have complete faith in the France team of tomorrow. It’s going to explode one day and I’m going to do all I can to be part of it.”
Adil Rami to FIFA.com

“I was clear that I wanted to play for the best, and for me Mourinho is the best. We spoke and he convinced me."
Mesut Ozil on his decision to join Real Madrid

“I remember so many nights sleeping on the streets. When I look at what’s happened, it’s like sport’s version of Cinderella. All the sacrifices have proved worth it. Football can change lives.”
Bebe after joining Manchester United

“I’ve lived my whole life on the football pitch, but the end of my career is getting close. I want to finish the year well and then decide if I will continue playing. I don’t want to set a date for my retirement. When the time is right I want to say after a game, ‘that’s it’.”
Ronaldo of Corinthians

"It is like a dream. All the players at United were heroes to me, people like Cantona and Ronaldo. I liked Solskjaer a lot and others, like Giggs and Scholes. I wanted to be like them and now I am here, I can promise I will do my best to emulate them."
Javier Hernandez following his Manchester United debut

“I received a very good offer from Chelsea and it was a very difficult decision, but I’m very happy at Santos. Money alone doesn’t bring happiness.”
Neymar on his decision to sign a new contract at the Vila Belmiro

“I love the club and I don't see myself going anywhere else.”
Arsene Wenger after penning a new Arsenal contract

football in august

I haven't updated this blog for a long time since i got too satisfied with just reading and commenting and watching the news in the world of footy. But here's an update of what happened in August (as far as i can remember):

A trending topic on twitter was craig bellamy, a former manchester city player who got loaned to his hometown club in ireland, cardiff. This felt inevitable since there have been rumors that Bellamy and the club have not been going on too well, but this could also be a great loss for Man city since Bellamy was one of the key players in the club.

EPL and Bundesliga officially begins this month, that means I'm going to be stuck watching streaming all night long, if possible.

Mesut Ozil is now in Real Madrid. Whoah! shocker! Apparently, it only took Jose Mourinho to convincw Ozil to leave Werder Bremen. This is going to cripple the latter and is a great asset for the former. Jose Mourinho is strengthening his team because of the loss of Kaka due to an injury.
The funny side of this story was that Ozil once mentioned in an interview for his official website that his favorite club in spain is Barcelona...lmao, but when he talked about it in his first official press conference in Real, he said that real Madrid is like the world's biggest club. Epic Fail. His site needs to be updated, and that interview deleted immediately, The chosen one is not going to be happy.

Two of my favorite German Players are in Real madrid right now, Sami Khedeira and Ozil.

on the Cesc fabregas transfer rumor, which spawned a lot of hate from me towards Barca players, Cesc is staying as captain for Arsenal. Hear that Barca? HE.IS.STAYING. how many times must you be told so you;ll just understand that?! A lot of players like Puyol and Xavi have nagged to the media about Cesc, btu he remains in the Gunners...for now. I hated the way they talked about it in the media, like Cesc really hated Arsenal, when he is the freaking captain...i mean, wth right?!

Meanwhile, in French Football...laurent Blanc suspended the world cup players for the first friendly match which they lost 2-1. FFF gave suspensions to these players, who were accused of being ringleaders:
Anelka-18 games (he totally laughed it off, saying they are clowns, for not getting over the issue)
Ribery-3 (he whined that all players should have been given suspensions)
Evra-5
Toulalan- 1 (this made me go..whaaat?! but the explanation was that he was directly involved in the writing of that memorable document that Domenech read to the press expressing their "joint" agreement to boycott)

Somethings wrong with France's top clubs, Brodeaux, Marseille and Lyon as they are currently on the bottom  in the rankings, they lost their matches, but let hope not be lost since it's just the beginning and knowing football, a lot of things could still happen. (Currently crossing my fingers for Bordeaux).

In Germany, Bayern Munich continues their winning streak (as usual, I mean, with players like Basti, Muller, Poldi and Lahm). Schalke is still vying for number 1 spot, although my favorite club is experiencing financial difficulties since they want to get more players to partner with Raul (yehey! a veteran from Real Madrid), but due to current constraints can only afford to offer a few million. But hear the good news, they got a new captain----> ducky! Manuel Neuer is Schalke's new captain!! Number 1 goalkeeper!

David beckham's retirement in international has been announced to the press by fabio capello....unbeknownst to the poor guy. Becks retorted by saying that he'll still be available for playing in case his country needs him. Hm, i sense he felt threatened. Rumors began cropping up that he could be transferring to an England club just to take back his slot in the three Lions. Rumors remain untrue to this day.

what else?!
too many!

so much news, so little time.

Thank goodness for Goal.com, dirtytackle, the offside and all the other football blogs that kept me updated!

and then i realized that this would make me happy again

...and forget my glum day

http://www.manuel-neuer.de/

my freaking memory+FB hate

i really think people should stop using FB to communicate about impt stuff like meeting someone on this day or whatever because some people just don't go to Fb anymore, that site is ancient! huuhuh...fml. I'm so sorry to my friend, that i totally missed out on what would have been a great day together...it's all my freaking fault...and now i can't stop the profanities...and my ranting! FTW. i cannot believe we didn't meet up! i cannot believe i forgot we were exchanging messages on Fb! I cannot believe i forgot it! it would have been a great day! i feel so guilty and glum about it...i cannot believe...................................

When life hands u lemons...

squeeze

squeeze

squeeze

then drink up!

sweet+sour combination always makes it more interesting

i want you too!

Music saves my Soul

i love my itunes playlists!
I go from noisy rock (angry)
to happy rock (anger dying down)
to melancholy songs (calm but feeling down)
to hopeful sounding ones (when i need to uplift myself)
and finally to bopper-songs (when i feel like i'm ready to conquer the world again!)

i swear i heard this all before...in real life

“Blair Waldorf: Do you… ‘like’ me?

Chuck Bass: Define like.

Blair Waldorf: You have got to be kidding me.

Chuck Bass: How do you think I feel? I can’t sleep! I feel sick, like there’s something in my stomach… fluttering.

[disgusted]

Blair Waldorf: Butterflies? Oh no, no, no, no no.

[horrified]”

—	Blair & Chuck

Mouth Shut

When I'm too tired to talk about it, I just shut up and let it run its course and when I'm ready I'll confront it.

But until then, leave me alone. 

"I have no illusions about my looks. I think my face is funny."

 I was asked to act when I couldn't act. I was asked to sing 'Funny Face' when I couldn't sing, and dance with Fred Astaire when I couldn't dance - and do all kinds of things I wasn't prepared for. Then I tried like mad to cope with it.

Audrey Hepburn 

What do you call beautiful? A tree. You'll look like a tree.

loud.

Walking in High Heels

If I add up all the money I've spent buying earphones for the last two months, I could have spent enough money to buy one pair that'll last far longer than the others did. But why do I keep buying the cheap stuff? Because I keep hoping that they'll be good enough to last more than the others did. In the end though, they don't. What is the relevance of this post to the photos featured above and below? Nothing. Except that i'm ranting to filter all the unneeded stuff so I can really write about something related to these two photos: women+fashion+society's view of its stereotype. 

I think my mind's clamor has died down, so here I go...

My favorite pair of shoes has always been of the high heeled variety. It's shiny and red and looks just like the photo below. I like it so much even if I teeter around on it like a baby who just started to learn how to walk. But I love it. I feel like that child, who just learned what walking is. That feeling of liberation when you could stand and walk around like all the others do. I like that feeling. There's some magic about these pair of shoes. I love how shiny it looks, I love that it's heels make me look and feel taller. I love how I stand up straighter when I'm wearing it. What I learned when I got older that its not wrong to love high heels. When I was younger, I hated high heels. I think they represent the stereotype that society has on women. That's why I preferred rubber shoes. I even wear them with skirts, in a severe act of defiance and fashion faux pas. Obviously, I learned better. There are women who promote feminism without looking like the worst for wear. It's good to make a statement. You don't just have to say the good stuff, you have to look good too.

I even read the magazines now. My tastes still discriminate though, as I prefer only some variety. What I love about fashion is that they know how to move with the times. They are constantly changing along with time. When people learned to recognize the impending disaster brought about by stick thin models, the industry moved forth with a campaign to ditch the models who are underweight. Effective immediately, this movement caused a lot of strife among their ranks. But it was to be done, because the people demanded it, times are changing, and so must they. The fashion world is a cut throat world, you must be thin, but now, there is a limit to how thin. 

A few weeks ago, I've read an article about how most magazines Photoshop (it's a verb, now, yes!) the models so they'll look a little "fuller" in the photos. Yes, my dear anorectic friends, they do that now. The demands for stick thin models have diminished. Eventually, it will come to the time when Marilyn Monroe-esque bodies shine again. And I can't wait for that because, i have constantly been called fat, which I know I'm not. Having a curvy body does not define fat. Fat is so derogatory when used that way, with malice in it. But guess what, fat gives shape to the body. And no, I would not like a body that's like stick thin models because I know for a fact that Victoria's Secret's models are a little curvier too. (Seriously, who'd want to buy lingerie with anorectic models' showing ribs and jutting bones). Unluckily enough for about 70% of the girls, fat will always be defined by society as those who are not stick thin enough. Idiotic indeed. But I wish women would get over what society thinks. If you're happy with your body, then so be it. Let them eat cake! I'd love to let them see how models look in real life, like walking lollipops. (I don't hate all models, just the stereotype anorectic thin ones) I absolutely dislike the advent of Twiggy in the modeling world, she spawned all those stick thin ideals. I prefer the era of Monroe and Bardot, theirs are when women were happily curvy. Forget diet, seriously vegetables?! Not unless you're a herbivore or with chronic illness that requires special diet must you do that. It;s not even that healthy, fyi. You lack essential amino acids which you get from proteins=meat and energy=carbs/calories. You know what made me happier? because I have these friends who may tease me a lot about being fat, but they still love me for it and they don't push me to get thinner. plus this great guy, who-i-shall-name-once-something-happens liked me even if i am, as they call me, "fat". I usually range from 47-50kg hah! and no that's not fat. I love my body. Just the way it is, and everyone else can just (as Tina fey puts it) "suck it". 

best diet tip ever...LMAO

My Drug dependence. (That refers to YOU, FYI)

Are you struggling with a drug problem that’s spiraled out of control? If so, you may feel isolated, helpless, or ashamed. 

 This has spiraled out of control. I thought I had it all under wraps. But then again, I had several episodes of remission until I finally succumbed to it.

The path to drug addiction starts with experimentation. You  may have tried drugs out of curiosity, because friends were doing it, or in an effort to erase another problem. At first, the substance seems to solve the problem or make life better, so you use the drug more and more.

 The path to drug addiction paved the way for self destruction. I meant to be more independent but now, I depend on YOU for everything. Which just goes to show how utterly spineless I am. Yeah, it was all rainbows and unicorns at first, but then it started to ruin that system I built when you were gone before. the rollercoaster begins again.

 Myths about Drug Addiction and Substance Abuse

MYTH 1: Overcoming addiction is a simply a matter of willpower. You can stop using drugs if you really want to.

• ALL LIES! Willpower is usually the first thing to crumble. In my case, that is. 

MYTH 2: Addicts have to hit rock bottom before they can get better. 

• I've been hitting rock bottom so many times I've lost count, but still I don't get better. 

MYTH 3: Treatment didn’t work before, so there’s no point trying again; some cases are hopeless.

• This isn't true! I'm still holding out hope that there could be an effective treatment out there and I have yet to discover or try it. I don't need time nor space (Since those two just make me miss more) but I need diversionary activity so powerful I eventually forget.

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And this is the part where I realize I could be offending some people by comparing my predicament with drug addiction. See how utterly lame I've become?!
And I've been listening to the same two songs for an hour because of the nostalgic feeling they give me.


I'm sick with it again.

strang and durm

I've been feeling doom and gloom for quite a few days now.
My life sucks. Really.
The minimum number of tests we have each day is 2. For each subject. FML.
I'm so freaking tired of going home to face another night of having to study, EVERY SINGLE NIGHT SINCE MONDAY.

LMAO photo

Sometimes, this can be annoying...

Miss Whoever You Are

You know what's wrong with you, Miss Whoever-You-Are?  You're chicken, you've got no guts.  You're afraid to stick out your chin and say, "Okay, life's a fact, people do fall in love, people do belong to each other, because that's the only chance anybody's got for real happiness."  You call yourself a free spirit, a wild thing, and you're terrified somebody's going to stick you in a cage.  Well, baby, you're already in that cage.  You built it yourself.  And it's not bounded in the west by Tulip, Texas, or in the east by Somaliland.  It's wherever you go.  Because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself.
-Paul Varjak to Holly Golightly 

but where are you?

Someone just told me I look ugly in my photo. At first, I was like, Okay, he's just teasing, but then he repeated it again and my fragile self esteem went shooting down the drain. So of course, I look for redemption from friends and guess who I thought of first?! Well, you. But you weren't there...and I waited! =(

I know I shouldn't rely on you to make myself feel good again but it's just so freaking addictive. You make me feel like everything else doesn't matter because you still care. When I tell you about it, you consider it in ways that make those annoyances go away, and I know other people can do that for me but you just make it feel more special, somehow. 

This is not good. I'm becoming dependent. 

And you're still nowhere to be found. 

WTF moment: Dreams feel real when we're in them

I just had the strangest feeling that my friend may have told me something life-changing about her but I didn't listen. We were talking  about everything and she may or may not have told me she was going to break up with her boyfriend...or I have just dreamt about it. Waahh!! This is so frustrating! It could have been true, I mean, our conversation did come to that boyfriend part but I'm not so sure about the breaking up thing and I don't want to ask again because she might get hurt that I didn't listen (If it's true) or think I'm confusing dreams with reality again (if untrue). Darn. So I may have learned too much during that day, not only about her but also of my other friends, that's why I must have gotten it confused or something. Too much personal information in just a few hours with different people can leave me feeling woozy.

I'm having my fingers crossed, I hope its untrue. I don't want them to break up. I don't know the guy but they've been together since high school and the apparent reason they'll be breaking up is because of another guy (?!?!). Oh crap, there's that feeling that it could have been true again. Darrrrnnnn...!

What if it was true?! But I really don't remember how I reacted at that time.
I'm crossing my fingers, hoping it's just a dream.
Why can't I remember that part of the conversation?!
It's untrue!
(I hope)

this is so frustrating!

i LOL when i saw this photo!

Gross Things Barcelona Players Say About the Cesc Fabregas Situation

Via the Telegraph:

"After seven years of great service, I thought Arsenal could have granted him his dream move."

The Barca captain is the latest senior player to make loaded remarks about Fabregas's future, joining Xavi, Andres Iniesta and Sergio Busquets.

Puyol added: "Cesc has given everything to Arsenal to try to win a trophy but they haven't matched his expectations.

"I won't say he is in a prison, as we know how privileged we are as football players. But after how clear Cesc made it that he wanted to be in Barcelona, I thought they would have granted him that."

if...

If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with. You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my tendency to be too clingy. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me. But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day. You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite my thinking that it is impossible.


from: tumblr.com
http://astroannie.tumblr.com/post/870751447/if-you-are-going-to-fall-in-love-with-me-its-only